Runs of topic huh? Guess so.

I am stubborn, controlling, too much of jealousy. But it does shows that i care but you seems to be looking the different point of view. I've changed for the better, i really trying my best to be even better.but you didn't see much in it, don't you? i need actions more than words. i know you treat me good, but... i don't know how to explain. I don't control you for nothing, i've got a reason behind it. but you thinks that i'm like others who controlling you and all. This really pissed me off, but i didn't say anything or complain to you.Did i? You're sick and i want you to recover quickly that's all. am i asking too much on that? Yes, i want you to smoke less, not to drink cold water, don't drink alcohol drink till your cough is okay. I never ask you do all this when you're healthy right? i let you do whatever you want when you're healthy. When i didn't bother, you say i didn't bother, when i bothers you say i'm controlling.(Y) tell me what i should do, then you will thinks that i'm average/normal?! And yesterday when your hp off. I was so worried, i thought something happened to you and i keep on calling and calling and calling and texting you but you didn't response at all till the morning 10+ . HA. okay, i'm stupid for doing that, really. Nevermind i shall not say anything or do whatever anymore. I don't want us to be in the state. so i shall just keep quiet. okay,enough of my blah blah blah...

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Well, i had heart to heart talk with love just now. i was awesome man! it's been long since we lasted talk till so long. i had a great time with even though it was just the two of us <3<3. ^.^